I'm baaaaaaaaack! Weight Watchers and I have this love / hate relationship. I love it when I've got the motivation to move forward, and hate it when I see all the women walking out of a meeting and I'm afraid to even step foot in the door....
So, I guess here's to try #489789453189471 at losing weight. Up until Saturday this past week, I've woken up every morning on a diet and ended up in failure every night. Today is day 4 of what I **hope** will be my final beginning. So far so good.
In all honesty, I don't see myself getting to goal yet. But that's like 40 pounds from now anyways. For now, I am focusing on the 5%: 9lbs. Baby steps, right?
I'm not writing this blog for anybody but me. Maybe seeing my thoughts and feelings staring back at me will give me the motivation to move forward. So world, here you go: My starting weight this time around was 174 lbs. Yeesh. Allll the weight I had lost is right back on. Awesome.
At 24, I've graduated college with 2 bachelor's degrees, have a house, a great job, brand new truck, a great family and boyfriend. I have all the things anybody could ever ask for, except for a healthy body and self esteem. Maybe I'm hiding behind the stuff? Maybe all the goals and achievements I have reached have been a mask for what is really bothering me? I dont know. But I am prepared to find out this time around.
Its time to stop feeling bad about taking care of myself. The time is going to pass anyway, whether I do something about ME or not. Might as well give it a go.
So, fellow weight watchers: it begins. I'll make it a goal to write in once a week, even if its just a sentence. Maybe I'll learn something about myself during this process I didn't already know.
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